daffodil

so i can not sleep.
i'm pretty much nocturnal,
and i dont like it,
not one little bit.
because,
the alarm is set,
to ring at nine,
and i have an interview,
at ten.

and it is 1:19am! ack! i think that if i wasnt nervous, i would probably be able to fall asleep no prob, but i just would reeealllly like to get this job, which just wont happen if i show up looking like a well dressed zombie with a head of flaming red hair.. (i say flaming, because i've been using my fantastic red head conditioner stuff, and it looks amazingggg) and i've done all of the most boring things possible (paint my toenails, attempt to decipher quadratic equations) but to no avail. part of me even encourages dishwashing, but the other more sensible half of me is consistently shooting down that idea as if with bow and arrow, because that will likely have the opposite affect. i'll just end up in a mass cleaing frenzy, and end up being awake until five. for some reason i just love to clean in the middle of the night, but it makes me ridiculously energized. and then i'd be so adrenaline pumped i'd probably want to go for a run, and then since it would be the middle of the night, u'd probably get stabbed in the alley behind my house and shoved in trish's garbage can or something. yes, this is a bad idea indeed. a bad bad bad and accurate scenario.

i love daffodils, they're my favorite flower. i even have them set as the background for my phone, it drives amanda crazy. she thinks flowers are uselss - how un-girl, i think. i love them more than tulips, i love them more than roses, but i'm just not quite sure why. like, they arent a particularly beautiful flower, they dont bloom in various striking hues of the rainbow, unlike the rose, they symbolize nothing, and they dont live for long... i think perhaps its the sunny color. i love yellow, its so bright and cheerful. just looking at a daffodil puts my mood a notch or two up on the scale. i especially like the baby ones at the superstore, its just a shame they have to live outside and i cant just keep them in a pot on my kitchen table.