if i could relive those days, i know one thing that would never change

I feel like I’m so ahead of the game with things right now – I’m just barely 19, and I’ve been renting my own place for a year and a half, I have a full time job with benefits and job security. My company actually pays for all of my insurance courses, and I like what I do. Give it another 6 months, and I’ll be running road full time, and I’ll be bringing in close to what the manager of my office makes. I want to have a house by the time I’m 25, and I’ll be right on track, or I’ll even be there! But then what happens? I run the road for 5 years, and then without a doubt, just like everyone else, I WILL get sick of the road, and I’ll want a job without insane amounts of stress, and I’ll want to go back to working in the office, or worse, I’ll finally figure out what I want to do with my life, and I’ll decide I want to go back to school. If I go back to working in the office, I’ll take a huge cut in pay, and then maybe I won’t be able to afford my mortgage – or the worse option: I’ll enroll in university. By that time, I will not be ahead of the game anymore, I’ll be far, far, far, behind the game. I’ll be 25 and in my first year, and I probably won’t even be able to get a student loan because the government will look at my nice car and my house and be like.. uh no way. So then I’m really screwed, basically.

Thoughts?

Of course, ideally, I’d just decide what I want to do with my life, like now, but I don’t think that’s going to happen anytime soon, I just can’t seem to find that ‘niche’ everyone else seems to discover. Of course, by that time, I’ll have a level 2 license in insurance, and all of my CAIBs and be certified to manage an office/have my own brokerage, etc etc, but I just don’t really see myself working in an office for the rest of my life.

Anyhoo, that’s my rant for now. I’m moving this weekend, so the next two days of my life will be spent packing EVERYTHING, and I haven’t really hardly started yet, oops. I’ve just been an eat-sleep-work-watch greys anatomy mode, and its quite sad. On the other hand, I’ve been doing a fair bit of walking lately, which has been pretty excellent, I feel better for it actually. And the other day I spent FORTY FOUR dollars on groceries, and I actually have SO MUCH FOOD, its so amazing. And rare. I’m really enjoying it while it lasts. I have a bunch of photos I’ve been meaning to upload, and I know I need to change the music, but next time, hopefully!


Cheers